We will never be the fat friend... Promise me girls!

Yesterday's intake:
Mini muffin
1/2 slice pizza
Bread roll
.... The bread roll pushed me over my breaking point. The guilt was overwhelming. & it made the hunger act up. My stomach was growling all night-still is- & I tried pushing my fingers into my stomach to make it stop. It didn't help much.
Today I've only had a CapriSun to drink. We went to get food but I resisted. Plus I just started my period so I'm all bloated which is a terrible problem seeing as how sensitive I am at the moment to any sort of intake. I feel like I've got a constant full meal in my stomach at all times. Oh, & I haven't taken a shot for about 5 days. I know you want all the yummy details, but just sayin... Hah
Anyways, I'm off to go busy my mind.
Xoxo

I would have gotten through the entire day having only a soda but at dinner my aunt n cousins started making this whole big deal (in that jokingly serious tone) that theyve taken a vote & they've never seen me eat anything so I HAD to go make a plate of dinner. It wasn't so bad but it threw off my week. That was 2-3 days ago? & now my intake has risen from 10 ff a day or a slice of toast to like, 300-500 Cals a day. Not super overdoing it, but it's more, way more, than i would like...
I told my cousin a lil about it last night. He's noticed certain symptoms n so I explained a bit, he didn't - he couldn't understand it completely. The anger & guilt that is attached to every bite. You can't explain that sort of pain. I thought out of anyone he'd understand the most bc he just recovered from a pill addiction & theres similarities in behavior, that helplessness & what not.. We both can't just, stop it change , ya know..
Anyways, I think hes more sympathetic now - but i hated looking into those eyes- just full of pity, or that's what it seemed like.. We'll see how things go from here on out though..
But I gotta say, being w a guy is the ultimate diet motivation bc you can't hide fat when your naked... Or in underwear.

Intake:
Approx 10-15 French fries.

Thasit! :)

So I totally blew it yesterday..
1 piece toast w pb
Chips
1/2 chicken sand
& a churro

Today:
1 chicken sandwich...
....but I walked an hour there, & an hour back. Burned off most of it.

That's it for the rest of the day. I promise!! I feel disgusting now. I always screw myself over when I've been doing so good. But I'm going to catch myself at the slip instead of the fall.
Still on my phone, I'll catch up on all of you when I get home, I promise! Xoxo

Kwick pohst :]

Intake so far: 0 nuffin!
Im planning on having a little something later but nothing big. 100-180 cals, maybe. But who knows. Today could turn into a fast day. It's been awhile since one of those.
Still blogging from my phone cause I'm outta state w/o my computer, so I have to do quick entries.
Xoxo ladies.