so ive been dating someone since the end of august, and i am so incredibly happy...and feel like, together we can take on anything the world throws at us. you know that feeling? Where everyone else can fade away, and life will remain perfect as long as we are side by side. He moved in with me a couple months before that, so we spend all our time together, and are both very passive and so we never argue, and can keep each other happy. (tmi warning... not to mention he is the only guy thats been able to make me come). But its sort of an untraditional relationship, and two friends know about us, and are very very against it. I got yelled at all day yesterday but one friend to leave him, make him move out, etc etc. But there is no way im going to sacrifice my happiness to fit into a conventional idea of a relationship.
Eating wise, its back and forth.. I can basically fast one day, and then the other day i cant help but push any snack near me into my face hole. God i wish i could purge sometimes. Restricting takes so much control.
Anyways, my boy left yesterday morning to spend christmas with his family and then meet me at my house after christmas. I cant wait till then. I miss everything about him. Im nervous my friend is going to tell my family about us, and that is going to start and shitstorm within the family. Why do people push themselves into your life when its not their place. I just dont understand. It makes me want to gather my things, and just run away with him and my puppy... experience life on the road. away from judgement.
....I need some text buddy support :)

Havent been eating real meals, but snacking on a lot of crap throughout the day, today will be different! 

.... because we do not want to look like this. 

Don't give in to that dangerous item today that's tempting you... You'll be a whale forever with that sort of will power (or lack there of). Be thin, be fragile, be delicate, be pretty, be powerful, we can do and be anything we want.

so there's this girl i want to meet who rides her bike everyday, pretty far from what ive gathered because i see her all over, riding around westchester area by LAX all the time! shes super super skinny and lovely and i always want to pull over and ask to ride with her and learn all her secrets, i guess there arent really any secrets, we know what we have to do to get skinny, but its nice to hear success stories.. anyways. maybe one day ill run into her.