Since I havent been able to keep a consistent intake, some days are really great and other days are terrible- so I went back to my photography project where i documented myself, my eating and everything for three months and arranged them in folders with fake hospital records and stuff. Anyways, i wrote down in my food log what i had for each of the 30 days, and im copying that diet plan, because that was my skinniest point. And because i know Ive done it one, it makes it easier for me to do it again. mental trickery! 


What I always think is funny, is just a few years ago- I had no idea if 100 calories was a lot or a little. I understood absolutely nothing about the nutritional contents of foods. Now it consumes me. 


I remember a few months ago when i was hanging out w the boy, he grabbed my wrists and stopped our conversation and said in this cute voice, "awww your wrists are soo tiny!!! look (as he wrapped his whole hand around my wrists, fingers overlapping his thumb) I could snap them! theyre sooo liiiittle"   I couldnt help but smile. 
I want that, but with all my bones. Your waist is so tiny! your legs are so liiiitle! your arms are so skinny! 
ahhh i cannot wait till that day. 


intake: 
1 cliff bar (260)
diet soda (0) 


ps. go buy Summer Heights High if you havent seen it.  It is absolutely hilarious!! Im watching it as im writing right now. Chris Lilley is brilliant. 


okay, skinnies- now put down the food and go hit the gym! 
< 3 

Since I havent been able to keep a consistent intake, some days are really great and other days are terrible- so I went back to my photography project where i documented myself, my eating and everything for three months and arranged them in folders with fake hospital records and stuff. Anyways, i wrote down in my food log what i had for each of the 30 days, and im copying that diet plan, because that was my skinniest point. And because i know Ive done it one, it makes it easier for me to do it again. mental trickery! 


What I always think is funny, is just a few years ago- I had no idea if 100 calories was a lot or a little. I understood absolutely nothing about the nutritional contents of foods. Now it consumes me. 


I remember a few months ago when i was hanging out w the boy, he grabbed my wrists and stopped our conversation and said in this cute voice, "awww your wrists are soo tiny!!! look (as he wrapped his whole hand around my wrists, fingers overlapping his thumb) I could snap them! theyre sooo liiiittle"   I couldnt help but smile. 
I want that, but with all my bones. Your waist is so tiny! your legs are so liiiitle! your arms are so skinny! 
ahhh i cannot wait till that day. 


intake: 
1 cliff bar (260)
diet soda (0) 


ps. go buy Summer Heights High if you havent seen it.  It is absolutely hilarious!! Im watching it as im writing right now. Chris Lilley is brilliant. 


okay, skinnies- now put down the food and go hit the gym! 
< 3 

Since I havent been able to keep a consistent intake, some days are really great and other days are terrible- so I went back to my photography project where i documented myself, my eating and everything for three months and arranged them in folders with fake hospital records and stuff. Anyways, i wrote down in my food log what i had for each of the 30 days, and im copying that diet plan, because that was my skinniest point. And because i know Ive done it one, it makes it easier for me to do it again. mental trickery! 


What I always think is funny, is just a few years ago- I had no idea if 100 calories was a lot or a little. I understood absolutely nothing about the nutritional contents of foods. Now it consumes me. 


I remember a few months ago when i was hanging out w the boy, he grabbed my wrists and stopped our conversation and said in this cute voice, "awww your wrists are soo tiny!!! look (as he wrapped his whole hand around my wrists, fingers overlapping his thumb) I could snap them! theyre sooo liiiittle"   I couldnt help but smile. 
I want that, but with all my bones. Your waist is so tiny! your legs are so liiiitle! your arms are so skinny! 
ahhh i cannot wait till that day. 


intake: 
1 cliff bar (260)
diet soda (0) 


ps. go buy Summer Heights High if you havent seen it.  It is absolutely hilarious!! Im watching it as im writing right now. Chris Lilley is brilliant. 


okay, skinnies- now put down the food and go hit the gym! 
< 3 

just video chat'd w the guy.
ugh it kills me that we both want each other and it just cant happen..... he brought up our kiss and we both got major blushed-& awkward-cheeks.

intake:
3/4 cup couscous : 100 cal

i was aiming for no food today, but thats not bad. definitely worked that off just in daily activities anyways. So im gonna pass out.
im depressed now, ending video chats w him suck. driving away after hanging out w him sucks. I wish it could just work out!

also, no food & no sleep has made me a total shake-fest all day! .... i forgot how much i love these symptoms. :}