"Man i aint even been to da gym in a minute... "

So for the first time in what feels like forever, I have those stomach feelings of...... a crush.

Ive had the most DEAD love interest life for the past year. And I am so picky too. Ive broken up with all my ex's & ended all my guy interests. So i cant settle for any guy just to have some sort of exciting life. Anyways, its really exciting. only thing!!! he has a girlfriend. They fight a lot though. I dunno, ive broken up couples (not on purpose) but i know if i really worked at it, i prolly could. but im definitely not that evil. So i dont know how to really handle the situation, its the most gut twisting feeling. but way exciting. Ill just be all nonchalant about it til the time is right. But work my way into his head. I got this. hah ;)

Dis a lil bbbbbranch right here, dis aint even no tree.

"Man i aint even been to da gym in a minute... "

So for the first time in what feels like forever, I have those stomach feelings of...... a crush.

Ive had the most DEAD love interest life for the past year. And I am so picky too. Ive broken up with all my ex's & ended all my guy interests. So i cant settle for any guy just to have some sort of exciting life. Anyways, its really exciting. only thing!!! he has a girlfriend. They fight a lot though. I dunno, ive broken up couples (not on purpose) but i know if i really worked at it, i prolly could. but im definitely not that evil. So i dont know how to really handle the situation, its the most gut twisting feeling. but way exciting. Ill just be all nonchalant about it til the time is right. But work my way into his head. I got this. hah ;)

Dis a lil bbbbbranch right here, dis aint even no tree.

"Man i aint even been to da gym in a minute... "

So for the first time in what feels like forever, I have those stomach feelings of...... a crush.

Ive had the most DEAD love interest life for the past year. And I am so picky too. Ive broken up with all my ex's & ended all my guy interests. So i cant settle for any guy just to have some sort of exciting life. Anyways, its really exciting. only thing!!! he has a girlfriend. They fight a lot though. I dunno, ive broken up couples (not on purpose) but i know if i really worked at it, i prolly could. but im definitely not that evil. So i dont know how to really handle the situation, its the most gut twisting feeling. but way exciting. Ill just be all nonchalant about it til the time is right. But work my way into his head. I got this. hah ;)

Dis a lil bbbbbranch right here, dis aint even no tree.

I know i keep apologizing for my lack of chattiness. I want to just spit out all of my chaos right now, but im so hesitant because my blogs have been discovered like, 3 times- which creates an insane amount of drama each time. but I keep trying to be more and more secretive about it.

So for awhile ive just been laying low.

I have been eating about 1 meal a day. which is already too much/ but i eat for the energy to ride my horse. And that is one of the most important things in my life, so i dont let this get in the way of that.

Anyways, I hope you girls are all doing more fantastic, and i promise (yet again) that ill chat it up soon enough.

I know i keep apologizing for my lack of chattiness. I want to just spit out all of my chaos right now, but im so hesitant because my blogs have been discovered like, 3 times- which creates an insane amount of drama each time. but I keep trying to be more and more secretive about it.

So for awhile ive just been laying low.

I have been eating about 1 meal a day. which is already too much/ but i eat for the energy to ride my horse. And that is one of the most important things in my life, so i dont let this get in the way of that.

Anyways, I hope you girls are all doing more fantastic, and i promise (yet again) that ill chat it up soon enough.

I know i keep apologizing for my lack of chattiness. I want to just spit out all of my chaos right now, but im so hesitant because my blogs have been discovered like, 3 times- which creates an insane amount of drama each time. but I keep trying to be more and more secretive about it.

So for awhile ive just been laying low.

I have been eating about 1 meal a day. which is already too much/ but i eat for the energy to ride my horse. And that is one of the most important things in my life, so i dont let this get in the way of that.

Anyways, I hope you girls are all doing more fantastic, and i promise (yet again) that ill chat it up soon enough.

just got home.

Im afraid to even step on the scale. Seriously- not going near it til I feel like ive lost at least 5 lbs.

I ate normal the entire time and that really got to me.

I need to fix this. immediately.

Im almost freaking out right now- i mean, i am- but im not going to let myself REALLy freak out bc i know i can get there. I have been before, and ill just have to do it once again.

SIGH.....

I long for those days, the empty shaky days. Thin days. mmm those are the best. :)