Day 2 fast = success.
Not even 1 bite of anything!
I'm gonna feel out today, I might have a little something, but it's so easy to fast right now I don't really want to f it up, & eating just 1 bite of anything, 1 piece of popcorn even seems like the biggest screw up in the world bc im starting this out so well.



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Yesterdays intake: 0
fast success!
i feel great too. food didnt even cross my mind.
today, its 4 pm and still havent had a thing. im aiming for another fast, only a couple more hours!
its so easy right now, and the only difference that i can think of between now and a few weeks ago when i couldnt stop stuffing my face,  is the depo birth control shot. seriously. its like a magical weight loss and baby blocker kick ass combo! brilliant. :)

Tomorrow afternoon the boy comes home and i could not be more excited.. and kinda nervous. Its just the anticipation i believe. 

I got back home today from a quick trip, cleaned the place, did some laundry, and worked out. burned about 600 calories. I had a chicken sandwich (no mayo) this morning and im not sure how much that was, then this evening i had 1/3 of a indian trader joe's rice & curry thing, so that was only about 100 (330 total). I made sure to throw 2/3 in the trash before i started eating it so i wouldnt consume it all, i get carried away easily. and the guilt floods me right after. So ive been pretty good about staying fairly in control. 

My days on the trip werent as planned as id liked, lots of eating out and stuff where its hard to avoid meals without people raising an eyebrow. But i chose things like small salad one night, side of spinach the previous night. Stuff that wasnt too harmful. 

But i was doing quite well with my restricting up till then. I didnt gain while i was there, but i didnt lose either. I was hoping to have lost a few pounds while the boy was gone for a week. But i can still keep it up. 

The only thing standing in my way of getting to my goal is myself, no one is shoving food down my throat, or hooking me up to feeding tubes, or keeping me from working out. I have total control, and if i fail i have no one to blame. Its simple, all i have to do is nothing. dont cook. dont chew. dont swallow. dont walk over to the kitchen. I just need to stay laying on my ass on the bed, or doing whatever im doing.. just keep my mouth shut, and ill eventually get to my goal. it shouldnt be very hard. 

I just bought a pair of jeans. size 25. all my other jeans are 25's, & one pair of 27s. but this pair is way smaller for some reason, but theyre so cute! so its a good motivation, and progress check. Put them on each day and watch as i creep them up and up. I can get them right to the top of my ass, but it pushes my butt and hips over the top, and i cant quite button it. So ill be happy when those pair fit perfect, that slightly loose fit. 

I love the first picture here. Its very me, so its like a preview of what i can be when i reach my goal. -20-30 pounds and i can be there! i need to be. And it will feel amazing.