intake:
1 cup Trader Joe-cheetos 100 cals
1 bag apple cider sugar 80 cals
I keep wanting to eat, sitting in my pantry we have all sorts of goodies in both the carb, sugar, and fat variety. but i also have a will for being skinny thats keeping me locked in my room, away from that danger.
im seeing a boy now too, its a very very facked up situation, so im not going to go into details, but i need to not be such a whale because i feel huge, disgusting, and the least bit of sexy. he comes back to town in a week or so, so over this week, i am going to restrict and fast and work out and shrink... he knows about my eating, its a drive for me to prove myself more actually. stay sick- even be more sick- just so he knows that im not making it up and being dramatic.
anyways, my blood tests came back normal, and healthy, which is disappointing. your own body telling you that youre healthy, when theres nothing more exciting than the thought of being sick. Im still bruising super easily, have my fractured rib, and all sorts of symptoms... when i went to work out the other night at 4am, i felt like i was going to pass out, or have a heart attack the entire time, but i pushed through it till i at least worked off my intake amount. we'll see how i feel doing cardio today though. ill keep you updated through my week of extreme restricting and fasting getting ready for a hot night when the boy returns. Till then, keep distracted with working out, watching movies, and working (being an artist, i can spend hours and days and lifetimes working nonstop. i have 4 exciting projects im working on right now, so that should keep me rather busy!)
thats all yo.
xoxo
stay strong you little twigs!
ps. who else is THRILLED for fall and winter weather!!!!!! :D
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