Change

changes are scary. especially these big ones.

1. ended job at the gallery
2. graduated college and trying to "make it" as an artist
3. got a puppy (who has begun his humping phase as of 8:00 pm today)
4. both my roommates are moving out. But my first roommate is moving back in with me, but has to find a job in fashion to pay for rent. :/
5. sending out my work to art magazines, competitions, galleries, museums, artists etc.
6. waiting to start assisting for the photographer in Venice, CA.

.... it just feels all so overwhelming and i feel incredibly alone for some reason. friends moving out, friends moving away after school, graduation, the feeling of needing to support myself now and be an actual adult, the boy i like going to school (berkeley instead of coming to LA).. i just feel this intense distance all around me.
I just want to move home and be 8 years old again!!
I think I need to re-decorate my home. I want my place to look like this:
shabby-chic/cabin-tipi-like. I really like the avant-garde architecture of crazy design and wood/cement/glass combo, and just radness. but not right now. I feel like thats a very "now" trend, and it wont be so timeless. and neither is shabby chic/cabin/tipi but i think thats just what i need right now. retreat. cozy. removed. whatever.
Food, sucks right now. Ive been eating too much with all these changes. but im ready to change my body now too. Gain at least SOME CONTROl BACK!
*sigh*
love you all. so happy were here for each other :}

Wicket

soooomeone got a puppy!! .... now tell me, how could this lil guy be a rescue?! left all by himself, all alone, in a shelter? He is the sweetest pup too! nothing but love and kisses. he's sitting right by my side as im typing this out. 

my last dog, who's at my old house with my parents and brother, does not like me after the first 3 minutes of my arrival. Shes full of excitement and then she wants nothing to do with me, till my next visit arrival. jerk! I was so worried going into getting this one. I just didnt want a repeat. dogs are suppose to love us!  im like, love me?? ... no! ... ok :(  .... la la la la im a dog la la la... thank goodness he was different! 

 

This guy, whenever i leave his sight he starts whining and crying! and if hes sleeping and i get up to go to the kitchen or my room, each like 10 feet away, he'll wake up, walk over to me, and then lay back down. he hates to be away from me. Which makes me SOOO excited. finally a dog that loves me! even if it is prison love. love by force. haha 

so he totally reminds me of a little ewok! so he came with the name Chuck, but im renaming him to, Wicket.. i think. :) what do ya think??