Today:

1 nectarine

1/2 cup noodles

Overall Ive been pretty good with not overdoing it, but I give into small things when my roommate is around and that has to stop.

Otherwise I would be down to like 110 right now probably!

I bought some really cute clothes yesterday. this adorable dress.. maybe once my stomach pulls back into place after these noodles Ill put up some pictures of it. ?

we'll see.

Last night I saw this amazing band open for Plants and Animals. They were called Lost in the Trees! it was beautiful. They had like 20 different instruments on stage. Id definitely recommend them. Theyre new cd comes out in august, they were selling it at the venue and its brilliant.

Also, I have my art show opening tonight so I gotta get ready for that tonight as well. very exciting.

Hope you all are doing great, I have to start catching up on everybodys blogs since Ive been "away" from this one for awhile.

Ive really missed this.

_JaneDoe

Today:

1 nectarine

1/2 cup noodles

Overall Ive been pretty good with not overdoing it, but I give into small things when my roommate is around and that has to stop.

Otherwise I would be down to like 110 right now probably!

I bought some really cute clothes yesterday. this adorable dress.. maybe once my stomach pulls back into place after these noodles Ill put up some pictures of it. ?

we'll see.

Last night I saw this amazing band open for Plants and Animals. They were called Lost in the Trees! it was beautiful. They had like 20 different instruments on stage. Id definitely recommend them. Theyre new cd comes out in august, they were selling it at the venue and its brilliant.

Also, I have my art show opening tonight so I gotta get ready for that tonight as well. very exciting.

Hope you all are doing great, I have to start catching up on everybodys blogs since Ive been "away" from this one for awhile.

Ive really missed this.

_JaneDoe

Today:

1 nectarine

1/2 cup noodles

Overall Ive been pretty good with not overdoing it, but I give into small things when my roommate is around and that has to stop.

Otherwise I would be down to like 110 right now probably!

I bought some really cute clothes yesterday. this adorable dress.. maybe once my stomach pulls back into place after these noodles Ill put up some pictures of it. ?

we'll see.

Last night I saw this amazing band open for Plants and Animals. They were called Lost in the Trees! it was beautiful. They had like 20 different instruments on stage. Id definitely recommend them. Theyre new cd comes out in august, they were selling it at the venue and its brilliant.

Also, I have my art show opening tonight so I gotta get ready for that tonight as well. very exciting.

Hope you all are doing great, I have to start catching up on everybodys blogs since Ive been "away" from this one for awhile.

Ive really missed this.

_JaneDoe

I feel so fat lately. a fatty stomach i cant get rid of, flabby thighs I cant run off, and all the other fat that hides itself around my skeleton, preventing be from true beauty.

Tonight though, someone told me i was anorexic after I her them a modeling scout told me I couldnt meet with Ford, Elite, and W - who were all interested in me- until i lost weight because my hips were too wide. After she said that, I tried as hard as I could not to smile, but I felt guilty because Im no where near that standard, and I wish i could accept that statement.

My friend just keeps dragging me along to all her meals and yells at me when I dont eat. She keeps checking up on me every second of the day , i love her to death but I kind of wish she was a little more oblivious! :/

I think i really need to not worry about her and really return the focus to me and my goals. As selfish as that may be, I need to if I am going to be happy. I feel disgusting lately. Blubber, heavy, jiggly, flobby, cellulite, calories, intake, exercise, food, fast, liquids, shaking, fullness, bloated, emptiness... it never ends. But we all know our goals and what we must do to succeed.

I beg for all your help to help me along.

My ana buddy is amazing!! and has been so helpful.

Love you ladies.

I feel so fat lately. a fatty stomach i cant get rid of, flabby thighs I cant run off, and all the other fat that hides itself around my skeleton, preventing be from true beauty.

Tonight though, someone told me i was anorexic after I her them a modeling scout told me I couldnt meet with Ford, Elite, and W - who were all interested in me- until i lost weight because my hips were too wide. After she said that, I tried as hard as I could not to smile, but I felt guilty because Im no where near that standard, and I wish i could accept that statement.

My friend just keeps dragging me along to all her meals and yells at me when I dont eat. She keeps checking up on me every second of the day , i love her to death but I kind of wish she was a little more oblivious! :/

I think i really need to not worry about her and really return the focus to me and my goals. As selfish as that may be, I need to if I am going to be happy. I feel disgusting lately. Blubber, heavy, jiggly, flobby, cellulite, calories, intake, exercise, food, fast, liquids, shaking, fullness, bloated, emptiness... it never ends. But we all know our goals and what we must do to succeed.

I beg for all your help to help me along.

My ana buddy is amazing!! and has been so helpful.

Love you ladies.

I feel so fat lately. a fatty stomach i cant get rid of, flabby thighs I cant run off, and all the other fat that hides itself around my skeleton, preventing be from true beauty.

Tonight though, someone told me i was anorexic after I her them a modeling scout told me I couldnt meet with Ford, Elite, and W - who were all interested in me- until i lost weight because my hips were too wide. After she said that, I tried as hard as I could not to smile, but I felt guilty because Im no where near that standard, and I wish i could accept that statement.

My friend just keeps dragging me along to all her meals and yells at me when I dont eat. She keeps checking up on me every second of the day , i love her to death but I kind of wish she was a little more oblivious! :/

I think i really need to not worry about her and really return the focus to me and my goals. As selfish as that may be, I need to if I am going to be happy. I feel disgusting lately. Blubber, heavy, jiggly, flobby, cellulite, calories, intake, exercise, food, fast, liquids, shaking, fullness, bloated, emptiness... it never ends. But we all know our goals and what we must do to succeed.

I beg for all your help to help me along.

My ana buddy is amazing!! and has been so helpful.

Love you ladies.