intake:
1 orange
1 zucchini with a bit of hummus
burned: 350 calories at gym
& 2 diuretics, 3 laxatives, and 4 diet pills
I remember when i took my first diet pill. from 1, to 2, to 4, to 6, now im taking 10 (1 pill is for my skin from my dermatologist) ... twice a day. thats, 20 pills a day.
too much? hah well not unless im losing weight rapidly, which im not.
At the gym today while doing sit ups by the mirror, i saw that gross fat around my hamstring area, ugh immediate motivation... and my shorts were squeezing my legs in this awful way. When i moved in a certain way, I could feel my inner thighs rub against each other.... they use to NEVER touch. Major freak out moment. thats more than enough to make me starve- So did my work out, took my pills, and about to drink my laxative tea before i start getting ready for bed.
havent talked to the boy today... im so good at playing the hard to get game, but with him, he actually is more turned on when i talk to him, and tell him i like him, and all that- how opposite! .... how annoying.
Anyways, off to make tea and lay on the couch. I didnt go to sleep last night bc i was writing an essay, comparing the opening title sequence of Dexter to Sylvia Plath's "Tulips".. not the most boring of topics. But tonight i am determined to get a few hours of sleep at least.
Tomorrow im crossing my fingers for a liquid fast, lasting for at least a few days.
water, tea, and zero calorie drinks only.
xoxo
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