My friend came to visit me this last weekend... And it was so much fun having her around, really got me back on track too i think. Last time we talked she was trying to recover and stop purging. But while she was here we talked a bit, and she explained how she got really really thin during winter and she had to gain weight (through threats from her dad) and now she's freaking out, and so we started chatting about what ive been going through and what shes been going through, and while taking nibbles of our friends birthday cake, shared jokes about having to go purge immediately, and fast for 5 days, and load up on laxatives n stuff.. it was so nice to have someone to share those messed up jokes with though! But shes taking these laxatives that she said are working really really well, and they dont make you feel sick or anything, and so i ordered some today! im gonna try them out and get back to you, but you can check em from the site, or from amazon- look here.
Anyways, I also bought several supa sexy items from victoria's secret to help motivate me as well! I am desperate to get back down to the weight i was at, F being "healthy" ! it only makes us FAT!
So today ive had my 2 water pills, 3 diet pills, & lax tea. (and thatll repeat this evening too). im sick right now, really bad cold. so im going to take a nap before my next class (today my school day goes from 8am to 10 pm without a break!) but i left my studio class to work at home and so im going to nap here, then go to class, and then work out after if i have even the slightest amount of energy. I also got some new good work out / weight loss app's for my phone that will hopefully also help a bit. I wish they just had an ED or ANA app. how amazing would that be? haha prolly would be in the most popular section !
I hope you are all well! Ive been reading all your blogs, but just have been totally behind on posting comments.
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