STICKS & BONES

is it wrong to use anger towards someone and starve myself to punish them? I dont think so at least.
The boy who has been talking to me the last few months, who think i am absolutely perfect for him and wants to be with me so badly to the point that he is actually afraid to come visit me now, which then turns him into a coward, and so he went running back to his semi current/ sort of ex gf.... doesnt make any sense to me! We have been so honest, telling each other every little and massive secret we have, from personal, to silly, to sexual. we both like each other, and blah blah blah, but now he is too nervous around me and has become scared. thank you text generation ! ugh. So after days of non stop communication, he had to go to sf to visit his ex/gf and then comes back, we continue talking immediately. i go on fb and see..... In a relationship with ___.... WTF?!?!  Literally, pain in my chest. And i talked to him today, asked him when that happened and if he was thrilled (trying to act all casual and supportive) and his response was, "i dunno" & "partly thrilled" "very partly"....  aaaaalright. so i told him how i didnt understand, it seemed forced and insincere and i should stop trying to make sense of it bc ill never get it......
he hasnt responded. But he knows about a lot of personal shit now, including my bad eating habits... he thinks im way too skinny already and trys to get me to eat.
So, i want to use this anger and motivation to become ultra tiny itty bitty... and blame his ball-less cowardly actions... Seems like a sick revenge, but in my head it would be perfect.
bitter much? maybe.... hah
I just cant believe he would settle for mediocrity when his "perfection" is here and waiting...  It makes me so angry.
First response, went to the store and bought some cookies... munched on those for awhile, but now ive gotten over my emotional eating and ready for my anger fast !!