WILD HEART

this weekend I lost 3 lbs, but I had gained right before so Im back to about where I began... I screwed up a bit tonight though. I had planned on sticking to my 1 cup pasta & yogurt ~ 350 cals. but then I had some more snacks tonight which probably boosted me to about 600-800 cals? :( oh well. Theres always tomorrow.

I was pretty down about it earlier, but what can i do? Just gotta do better the next day right?

And im starting out tomorrow with a morning yoga class. how amazing right. Im really excited. Yoga, maybe some beach time? writing. drawing. dreaming. shrinking.

lovely.

A perfect day to start fresh and new.

I decided that im not going to try to blend it as much anymore.

If i dont want to eat, I am not going to.

simple as that.

For so long I have tried to force myself to eat so people wont say stuff or wont feel uncomfortable or whatever ridiculous thing i am feeling,

and it never helps.

People still notice and talk.

And I just always feel bad about it.

So I will eat when i want, and I wont when I dont want to.

I am dont pretending to be unhappy just to try to blend it and hope people are pleased.

Its too much stress on myself.

Have a lovely day tomorrow.

I hope you all take a moment and find something amazing, and document it- whether that be by halide crystals, ink, or diction.

Goodnight.

_JaneDoe